Hate words


I didn’t want to write this post, it doesn’t “fit my profile” i thought. Plus it’s something that is going to pass soon, i won’t write about this. Yesterday i bought my mom a scarf, to wear when her hair falls. Since i bought the scarf, i might as well write the damn post.


Take a moment and think. Your phone rings, at the end of the line is a loved one. My mother.

“Hey sweetie, my test results are out. Looks like i have a breast tumor and the doctor insists we took it out right away.”

The rest of the phone call can be guessed. “Everything is going to be fine” etc. Yes, you lose ground under your feet. It’s just cancer.

Why would i have chills over a word i use or hear so often? And by the way why would this disease be called this way??? Why not use a medical hi-tech term? LikeΒ lymphic-extra-weird-blood-disease or something??? (yes, i am good at making out new words! πŸ˜› ) Nope, they had to go and screw that word for me!

I mean come oooon, cancer is everywhere, in the sky, on the earth, in our zodiac signs, did it have to get in our body??? And all of a sudden it’s a “forbidden” word. Or at least a scary one.

And then more hate words come, likeΒ chemotherapy. At least this is not an everyday word, so i shouldn’t be mad at it…. ThereforeΒ i am going to give this one a break.

And this is the time you actually appreciate health,
now you get to see the beauty of a nice cold,Β awesome!

So if you are like me,Β worryingΒ about some extra pounds or about your job not being rewarding, take a moment and think of that phone call. And smile please, cause everything is going to be just fine! πŸ™‚


P.S.1 – Mom did her surgery, thank God that stupid tumor is out and now it’s chemo time. Doctors say she is going to be just fine when all of this is over!

P.S.2 – No pictures this time. I don’t like touching disease posts with photos of people walking on a beach holding hands. Sorry for being grumpy.

P.S.3 – I wanted to write a post about Google (again!). Sorry Google dear, next time.

P.S.4 – I can go on withΒ these P.S.s for long!

94 thoughts on “Hate words

  1. I’ve been down a similar road, three times to be exact, with my wife. In the end, she lost her battle, but she gave it the good fight for almost 20-years. Anger is good. It’s an emotion that needs to come out, along with others that are too numerous to mention here. Your not the patient, but you’re as close as anyone can be to the disease, as her daughter. Good to hear that her surgery went well. Chemotherapy sucks, no doubt about it, but it oftentimes works when the disease is caught early. Best of luck to you and your mother.

    • I am so sorry to hear about your wife…. It takes great strength to fight with this disease for over 20 years, you should be proud. I have talked with many people with similar stories these days. What is amazing is the strength and willingness for life cancer patients have. We should all learn from them and stop complaining about stupid things…. Thank God my mom’s tumor was “new born” when they took it out. Thank you for the support! πŸ™‚

  2. Ioanna hang in there sweety! I’m sending all my love and strength to you dear**! Recently I’ve had a couple of friends whose parents are battling cancer as well..it’s so frustrating that you can’t do anything to stop the cancer..you can just hold them and hope for the best..give them strength so they’ll keep going! hugs my friend**

  3. Oh no, Ioanna! I hope all will be fine with your mother. Isn’t that awful how much power a word can hold? Cancer is definitely a word none of us wants to hear. EVER!! I really hope and pray she will be fine. Don’t worry. Just be there for her and love her. That is everything. Hugs. xxx

  4. Wow! I appreciated this so much. Now I understand your comment on my recent post. At first I stopped to look at my picture again to see if I could see the ‘strange’ that you saw…but now I understand. I know it hurts but soon it will all be behind, never forgotten… but certainly behind. Thank you for sharing.

  5. You are a very strong girl, ioanna, to hang in there in a difficult time like this with a smile. I wish that all will be fine with your mother very soon and she will recuperate completely. Good luck, dear, and take care.

  6. You have a way with words. You sound strong and so does your mom. I hope all the chills go away and that it will soon be behind both of you. In no way am I making light, but my hips thank you. Perspective…

    • Thank you Gemma. Thank God this is an “easy” kind of cancer and thank God doctor say in a year she is going to be totally cancer free, otherwise i don’t know how strong i would be. I guess i can look at the bright side, since we found out about cancer my house is the tidiest it has ever been! I am cleaning up like crazy every day! πŸ˜›

  7. Your humour shines through a tough time. The storm will pass for you & your family & a new day will beckon with renewed hope & healing. God bless

  8. Hey..posting all this is not so easy for anyone..but you seems to be a strong & brave girl.. as your mother too…be the same…
    Recently I had read a book ” The Secret “..it says a very interesting fact..”Power of attraction” i.e. Whatever we attract or think to achieve is positively attracted towards us… So never loose hope & be a positive thinker always..
    God bless you and your family..Tc πŸ™‚

    • Thank you my friend. Talking (and writing) always makes me feel a little bit better! πŸ™‚ I know that book, i haven’t read it thouth… I am sure everything is going to be fine, it’s a one way street anyway! πŸ™‚ Thanks again for all the support!

  9. All our best wishes, prayers and positive energy sent to you and your mom – I have been there also with my mom who suffered through the same thing (she’s now 5 years clean) so feel free to bitch, complain, whine, agonize, make the best of and in the end, celebrate. That’s what your blog is for!

    • Thank you so much! I didn’t want to write a post for this at first… i thought it would be too much sharing my problems with people i don’t know, but your wishes and kind words make me feel so much better…! πŸ™‚

  10. Mi dispiace profondamente per la Tua cara mamma!!.
    Prego solo per Lei e per Te affinchè il Signore vi doni la forza per combattere!
    Un cordiale saluto

  11. Sending healing light and love your mom’s way… WE can add words but they mean little in the face of it… love and hugs and I know this story well… Blessings! πŸ™‚

  12. I totally know what you mean, I hate that word too. Btw, my mother is a survivor and has been cancer-free for almost 10 year. Much positive energy to you and your mother.

  13. I like your “grumpy” honesty, Ioanna! It shows how deeply you adore your mom. I’m glad she’s progressing nicely through her treatment. Cancer’s a b*tch no doubt. Cheering your mom on from afar!

    • Thank you Anne! Yes the truth is i am a bit grumpy towards people these days… Mom on the other hand is very peaceful and positive, she keeps us all in a good mood! πŸ™‚ With that positive attitude i am sure she scares the crap out of cancer! πŸ˜€

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  15. How brave of you to post this. I am sure you will now feel you did the right thing. I lost my mother earlier this year and found it surprisingly therapeutic to write a short post about it. I wish you all well: you have made a great start, and there is no reason not to look forward to looking back at this as just a blip on the journey.

    • I am so sorry to hear about your brother…. Writing makes me feel better, as if what’s bothering me is out of my head and on a piece of paper… At first i wasn’t sure if i should post about this…. “who cares” i thought. Now i feel so blessed with all your wishes! Thank you my friend!

  16. Clicked “like” to let you know I was here and that I listened, but couldn’t leave. This isn’t a “like” post, seemed like I should do more, so I wanted to use my words, to reach out and tell you that I was here. Your blog is a great way to express the many feelings you have about your mother’s illness. Get them out. And YES! as a zodiac cancer I detest that they kidnapped my sign with and that it is associated with a dreaded disease!

    • Thank you for being here Charlotte! πŸ™‚ It’s true, talking about this here, and everyone’s wishes make me feel so much better! Am i not right??? Why would someone go and name such a severe illness after such a common word???? :-/

  17. Ow I feel for you, ioanna. 😦
    Even then, your last words is very generous, and inspiring.
    I think you need to keep up this kind of energetic approach with this situation. Don’t lose hope, or show any frowns. Just my 2 cents.

    • Mom is a really positive person so she doesn’t let the rest of the family take the news heavily… Plus i am done taking it seriously. At this point i am angry at the person who named this disease after such a common word!

  18. Sending some love your way Ioanna and for your mum. Thankyou for the reminder of how insignificant those other daily dramas can be. Our health is one of our most precious things. πŸ™‚

  19. First of, thanks for the visit πŸ™‚

    I wish your mum and your whole family strength and much better days ahead, Ioanna. I’ve been through that twice this year (my grandfather and then my aunt), it sucks! But I surrounded myself with friends and family and they’ve helped me get through it. I think you’re a tough girl, and your mum is a brave soul, it will get better πŸ™‚

    Hang in there. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mum.

    • Thank you so much for your kind words Gracie! Unfortunatelly almost everyone seems to have some kind of experience with cancer…. i am sticking to the zodiac sign when all of this is over! I hope your relatives have gotten over it and are absolutely healthy!
      Many thanks again my friend! πŸ™‚

  20. Sorry to hear that. I dread the word too. I hope and pray for your mom’s fast recovery. My mom got really sick last year and it scared me like crazy but it was during this time that we even became closer and yes, God was always there. Thanks for sharing her story.

    • Thank you so much my friend. It feels good being able to talk about this and receiving so meny wishes from all my blogger friends! πŸ™‚

  21. Ioanna, I hope, both, you and your mom are doing well. Strange how words can sometimes turn into scars. I’m glad you got up the nerve to share this. Don’t be afraid to let yourself fall – we’re all here to catch you.

    • That was the most beautiful thing i ‘ve heard, thank you lomoherz! Mom is doing fine, and dad is a very strong companion! πŸ™‚ Unfortunately i don’t have my close friends with me, but all my blogger friends have made me feel so good with their wishes! Thank you again! πŸ™‚

  22. I’m so sorry, this damn cancer is affecting too many people. Having said that, staying positive and strong will have a huge impact on the success and recovery. Wishing your mom a speedy recovery, stay positive for her xoxo

    • Tell me about it….. Having mom with cancer i keep finding out about people who suffer from this illness all the time…. so sad… I am sure we are going to make it, mom just needs some time and extra strength and happy thoughts! Thank you my friend! πŸ™‚

  23. As a Mom who has just finished surgery and radiation for breast cancer, I just wanted to say that my daughter was my biggest ally during all of this, and it meant so much to me to have her love and support. In this case, anger is a positive thing, and don’t hesitate to talk talk talk! You need support too. Love and hugs to you both.

    • Thank you so much for your kind words Pamela! I am so happy to hear that you are done with the disease my friend! πŸ™‚ I am doing my best for mom, and of course she has dad by her side all the time! So i am sure everything is going to be just fine! πŸ™‚

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  25. With an outlook like you have from some reading of your posts Ioanna you and your Mum will am sure be great powerbuddies together during any ups and downs to beat this . Mums and Daughters together = immeasurable Happiness and Love . I wish that all could have the same relationship that you seem to have πŸ™‚

    • Thank you so much for your kind words…. My mom is an amazing person, and so is my dad. We are going through this all together, and you know what, now that some time has passed, it doesn’t seem that bad! Now we can tease mom for looking like a tourist with the scarf on her head! πŸ™‚

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